Morning Pages

Have or are any of you practicing writing "morning pages?" I am doing the Spring training Workshop and one of the suggestions was doing morning pages which is an idea gotten from the Artists Way. It is writing three pages of just cursive writing in the morning to clear your mind. They say that after doing this for several weeks, it clears your mind and your creativity and intuition is so much clearer. New ideas and things come to mind and solutions to problems. And on and on.So I am going to do it, in fact I started today and write my three pages. You are to do it every morning before your day starts and just write and write,no editing, no reading just writing. Lets see if it works!!

Hope all have a happy memorial day weekend!

All Alone

I am officially an "empty nester". Both my daughters are now moved back to sunny California and i am here three states away in Texas. I never imageined my family would be separated by three states let alone three cities, but here I find myself in this situation. It is sad for me. I cannot just run down the street and visit them, now I have to make plans and take time to go and visit them...not sure I am liking that. But I promised my husband at least two years in Texas, soI have to stick to that. It is not that I dont like Texas, I do like Texas, I like my home, living near my cousins, but I too, also miss Simi Valley. Not so much California but Simi Valley where I lived for thirty some odd years. where my kids grew up, got married, graduated and where my son died. How do I leave that history behind. I am not the kind of person that can do that. There is no history here for me in Texas. Sure I have maybe 40 some years to make it, but do I really want to make it when my entire family lives in California?

It is hard to be away ... in the meantime I will take some writing classes, some art classes , go visit places in Texas i have never seen, and make the best of it.

There are times that I think all a mother can do is just to love and support her children regardless of the decisions they make. My 19 year old decided she did not like Texas and had to get back to California so I had to let her go. Too young in my opinion to be on her own. But she upped and moved and so far, although it has been a bit rough, is doing fairly well. It is not always what we as mothers want, but as long as she is safe and has a roof over her head and food in her stomach I have to let her go and spread her wings.

Then there is my other daughter Lindsay and her hubby Tony who also do not like it here in Texas and although they are working here, they just do not want to be here. So much so that it is making my daughter sick. Not Texas but the idea that she lives here and not in California. There is this draw to California and I guess if I were her age I would want the same. Thats where she grew up, thats her home and where all her friends and most of her family are. She doesn't want to be away from them. Although she is leaving her mama in Texas by herslef...lol, I would rather she be with Aarika and they have each other.

So much for my big plans that everyone would live happily ever after here in Texas. I guess visisting and living here are two different things. So the girls say.

As for me...I will not come to a conclusion just yet and give it more time .... that is of course unless my daughter has my grandchildren!!

Happy Mothers day to all you bloggers out there! I do not have all my kids with me this mothers day and this is the first time. Aarika is in California and get to see her next Sunday..woo hoo, but thank goodness I have one here still...although not for long. Lindsay invited me to lunch today to Chipotle..yummy, I love that place. It was so nice just sitting outside eating and talking just she and I. We don't get the opportunity to do that much so when we do, I love it, thank you Lindsay.

I am also not able to be with my mom today who has been my role model. She is an incredible mother who although she had her many downs and ups she has always been there for us kids and I love her forever. She is 83 and she and dad just took a driving trip out to see me a couple weeks ago!! You go mom!

I LOVE YOU LNDSAY AARIKA AND ERICH WITH ALL MY HEART

My gosh I think summer is upon us! It is 91 degrees outside and I thought this was still spring! Not sure we really had spring out here in Texas this year. first spring here and it seemed sort of hot.

Last night my hubby and I went out with my cousins to Chuys...love that restaurant. Had a blue Hawaiian..pretty good drink but prefer pina coladas and margaritas over it. Then went to a car show where all the muscle cars are..kinda cool. Beautiful cars and some that reminded me of when I was in high school and knowing the guys that drove those cars were real cool...lol. Then went and drove to CowTown Speed Way..talk about your out in the country hick speed way...I loved it though.Got to go back to that and actually watch some races.

Tomorrows mothers day and first one I have not had all my kiddos with me. Lindsay is still here but I am thinking tomorrow she is going to tell me she is leaving for California again. They don't like it her and as much as I don't want her to go I also don't want them to be so unhappy. I hope this works for them.

Well happy mother's day to all you bloggers out there, enjoy your day!

You know how sometimes you take a class and you wonder if it is working or not ... well in the Soul Restoration course I am taking I was wondering that, but you know what? What they say does sink in ... this morning at 5:30 (when i get up to go to gym) I just did not want to go, I wanted to sleep so I lay there awhile and kept say to myself , as Soul Restoration taught us to say... "she did it anyway." So I am thinking of the phrase and I was so tired but I had to do it anyway. So got up and went to gym and felt better for it after all!

Tonight going to one of those "romance" parties. My cousin is hosting it so should be quite fun...especially with margaritas and daiquiris!!

Again, it has been forever since I have been on. Guess I think I don't have anything to write but then I read other peoples blogs and they just write about random stuff so guess I will start doing that!

I have been taking Christy Tomlinson's She Art Workshop and am loving it. It is so much fun working with different textures and paints. I love it. Cannot really draw the "She" but like all the other parts. Also am doing Soul Restoration online and it has been great. Lots of journaling and art with that course to. I am amazed at all the wonderful classes and art projects I have found through you alls blogs...its been great. Keeps me busy. Don't even want to work anymore just want to work on my projects. Not good for the paycheck if I do that though so get up early in the morning go work out at Curves and then come home and usually craft for about an hour and then of course I do it in the evenings! I love it.

I am finally settled into my new home and my veggie garden is doing so wonderful. I cannot believe how fast veggies come up. I planted squash, cucumbers, radishes, carrots, green onions, cantaloupe, watermelon, tomato's...cant wait till they produce my veggies!

I have been loving all the lightening and thunder we have been having. Never got it in California so its a real treat for me. The skies light up so beautiful. Not liking the tornadoes and devastation those storms have caused though.

So that's my catch up...not much but will try and just write from now on....